December 2009
95 posts
Just not feelin’ it…I don’t even know what it is…
I want to go home and see my biffel.
This is us on her 21st birthday, almost 2 years ago.
This is the last time I saw her…almost a year ago…NYE in LA on her stoop. We have so much fun together, we don’t even have to go anywhere. We spent the entire night sitting on that stoop together and we were...
Today I woke up. I pulled a t-shirt out of a folded pile of clothes and threw it on. It was an XL boys t-shirt and came down to my knees. At least it’s hiding the “winter weight” I’ve put on so far. I found a dirty, stretched out pair of jeans on the floor and put those on too. For shoes, I opted for the slippers/boot hybrid (fuzzy and warm on the inside with a hard sole,...
I found my dream house
This little villa is apparently located in the south of Spain. It’s just what I’ve always dreamed of: small, clean, open, simple, and still so beautiful (the only thing I might change on the inside is some furniture). And of course I would want my house with a view like that and fields of wild flowers…I might just have to start learning Spanish again and move there, it’s so...
“See, I will always have this penchant for what I call kamikaze women. I call...”
–
Woody Allen (via whokilled)
Woody Allen does some pretty bullshit stuff to my heart and soul. How am I even suppose to marry another person when I know Woody Allen is still alive? How am I even meant to think someone else will love or understand or even ACCEPT me as long as I’m aware of Woody...
Thanks for all of your music suggestions last week. I made a 13 hour mix and included at least one song from every artist you guys listed (yes, even backstreet boys). So even though I’ll be going the longest time I’ve been without a computer/tumblr (sad, I know) it’ll at least feel like I have you guys with me.
And Phil, I’m going to take a rain-check on that cup...
My Top 5 Artists (Week Ending 2009-12-13) →
bringonthetragedy:
Mike Hale (46)
Ólafur Arnalds (35)
Mineral (19)
Stars of the Lid (18)
Jason Molina (18)
Imported from Last.fm Tumblr by JoeLaz
Stars of the lid: every night as I go to sleep. Almost to the point where I can’t fall asleep without it. Articulate silences.
“Nothing ever goes away until it has taught us what we need to know.”
– Pema Chodron (via sometimesagreatnotion)
thank you for this.
unfold
One can always disappear into one’s own disbelief, fold up into a state of nonexistence, but to crumple into this origami mock oblivion does not make the soul forget its true dimensions, it merely leaves it with a false topography of shameful wounds and creases.
(via littlepotato) (via punderdog)
“The city knows you better than any living person because it has seen you when...”
– Colson Whitehead, “City Limits” (via meaghano)
“But I don’t know what to do.” That’s always what I think in my most desperate...”
– What I Was Told (via nightmarebrunette)
Her writing captivates me. Isn’t it funny how someone, somewhere far away from you, with totally different circumstances, can put into words all the conflicted emotions that you can’t seem to grasp and control. And to do it in such an eloquent...
“There’s a common misunderstanding among all the human beings who have ever been...”
– Pema Chodron (via sometimesagreatnotion)
“It isn’t the things that are happening to us that cause us to suffer, it’s what...”
– Pema Chodron (via psychotherapy)
So a couple weeks ago I was bored. I decided to apply to be an extra for a TV show pilot they’re shooting here. I told everyone “wouldn’t that be hilarious if I was an extra?” and I even believed it myself for a while. Until they called…and really wanted me to be one. Now, it’s not so funny.
I’m what you call an “anti-social” person. I...
Couldn’t sleep last night. Tossed and turned until 7 this morning. Hopped out of bed, grabbed my computer, hopped back into bed and watched the season finale of Dexter…
Now I have a pit in my stomach, dried tears on my cheek (yes, there were 1 or 3 tears/sobs…let’s all laugh at the over emotional girl who gets too attached to fake TV show characters) and I don’t want...
I did it. I finally took the plunge. Sometimes in life, you just have to do things you really don’t want to do. And the experience really is as bad as you thought and worried it might be. But once it’s over you can take a deep breath and thank the LORD you weren’t born and raised within a 200 mile radius of New Jersey and it’s shore (and if you were, and have to deal with...
sometimesagreatnotion:
copycats:
Have Yourself...
I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz, or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off. I love you as certain dark things are to be loved, in secret, between the shadow and the soul. I love you as the plant that never blooms but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers; thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance, risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body. I love you...
“Y algo golpeaba en mi alma, fiebre o alas perdidas, y me fui haciendo solo, descifrando aquella quemadura y escribí la primera línea vaga, vaga, sin cuerpo, pura, tontería pura sabiduría del que no sabe nada, y vi de pronto el cielo desgranado y abierto.”
“And something started in my soul, fever or forgotten wings, and I made my own way, deciphering that fire, ...
“Les enfants seuls savent ce qu’ils cherchent.”
– Only children know what they are looking for.
The Little Prince
Listening to this song and doing a little...
“Passion is in all great searches and is necessary to all creative endeavors.”
– W. Eugene Smith (via ckck)
What Newton Said
littlepotato:
sarzha:
There is a specific type of inertia that results from spending an entire day in sweatpants and indoors. It induces drowsiness even after eight hours of sleep, a propensity to snack even after lunch, and an inability to generate independent thoughts.
yes.
I’ve been working from home a lot lately. I’ve been in pjs for the last three days and I think...
“For this is what we do. Put one foot forward and then the other. Lift our eyes...”
– Gregory David Roberts
“If expanding Medicare is good for people aged 55 and up, why isn’t it good for...”
– - Matt Taibbi:
http://trueslant.com/matttaibbi/2009/12/10/health-care-for-almost-one-third-of-everyone-who-is-left-handed-and-over-50/
(via mattpayton)
I’ve been juggling about four books; some new, some I’m re-reading. I don’t really know why I even pick up other books when I haven’t finished the one I’m reading, but it’s been nice to start “pleasure-reading” again. I stopped reading for enjoyment during school because I was always so busy reading required texts that the last thing I wanted to do...
“I felt empty: the kind of emptiness that’s sad but not distressed, pitying but...”
– Gregory David Roberts
Happy Birthday Chris...
I love you and our right, chewed hoodie strings. Thanks for putting up with my antics 24/7. I will always need you in my life and you better always be there :]
I can’t wait to meet you somewhere between Cocoa and Nashville and hopefully share a sweet tea or two.
P.S. Remember when we were “in love”…..HAHAHAHAHAHAHA no…but really.
“It hurts to feel inadequate and unworthy of someone with all the right...”
– “Runaway” written by Trina Dela Rama
“Listen: I am ideally happy. My happiness is a kind of challenge. As I wander...”
– Vladimir Nabokov, “A Letter That Never Reached Russia.
“Behind the shadows, I find some unrealistic yet comforting solace in the...”
– “Runaway” written by Trina Dela Rama
reaganomics:
jessiv:
the 22nd of december cant come soon enough. until then i will be hidden under my down comforter in my den like room, with my puffy eyes & broken heart. i dont know how im going to come out of this, but i hope i find peace in something ..
2010 will bring a clean slate for all of us. i can’t wait to be with you and tess. move up and on but we got each other.
yes we...
ckck:
“Comptine d’un autre été, l’après-midi” by...
Ryan Adams - Two
I’m dedicating today to...
“We don’t exist unless there is someone who can see us existing, what we say has...”
– Epicurus
For both my real friends & my tumblr friends who help me believe that I do have a place in this crazy, fucked up world that I will never come close to understanding.